1318hrs...homey

18th November 2007, Sunday

Wellloo...feels like its been sometime since ive been homey,hah! Been goin out to study, teh tarik moments, and juz hv fun =)

Lime Sonic Bang was borin, everyone was like complaining..haha,sorry Paula n Zuli, was nt thr to entertain u all,hehe!

Yaya's sis warned us sooner,told us the event is v.stupid n boring so Yaya was like dn wn to go thn of crs, me & Fidi by the beach at nite with a boring event? Naaa
Tot of bringing some food n drink n chill at the beach wth him bt dn thnk hes a romantic n scenic type,haha!

In the end, we went out to dine at the turkish restaurant at Far East..expensive but fillin tho,love it~brought my cousin along, haha, she went well wth thm, great~

Oh ya, went to orchard tower fer 'sightseeing',hah! JAMBUUUU...ergh

Done sending my cousin to the int, 4 of us went Arab Street for some teh tarik, weee~ Thnx fidi fer the treat, muah! U offered Coffee Bean but welll, teh tarik's still the best...! =p

Sayang sayang seribu kali sayang...Zaid has to report to work 5am this morning so we cant hang out later than 12am, damn NS! We would have roamed ard Singapore for more 'sightseeing' man,ISH!

Bet its a better nite of FUN fer all of us, been meetin fer study only (not FUN)...ergh~really2 looking ferwerd for more fun times wth u guys =) mmmmmuuah!

Fidi:
Study well n good luck for ur exam aite, do ur best! U still hav stories to pour out to me ;) We'll hang out sooooon..

Zaid:
Pls dun get too workaholic. Screw NS, haha! Leave the job to the newbies baby~

Yaya:
Glad u had fun (at last!) with us..haha! Gd luck fer ur prac on mon! Ill consider abt the bet though, thnk thrs still hope fer me to win, hehe!

Thnx all fer making me happy in times when im not...*hugs*

0100hrs...Infirmity

15th November 2007, Friday

Hey peepz, *yawn*..haha, sleepy but sis not in today so trying hard to have a splendid lonely time in the room, doin stuffs just to let go n let go n let go...im sure im sick, sick everywhere..Allah, please please help me..I just need calmness n peace in life..please...

With exams ard the corner, I felt nothing..haha! Finally i completed cardio drugs in phar notes, finally! Damn tedious man, NS1 n NS2 n NR...shaizer! Only abt 50 to 60% semangat to do well now...=p only...

Almost e'day study wth yaya n fidi, drives me 2 study tho...its good~thnx guys!

Its bn quite a long time since i spent time wth long lost frens fidi,taufiq,zaid from sec sch,haha..fidi was quiet then, we din actually lepak together, only meet every year for raya outings (ttz it), then ths year was diff tho...good tt we still kp in tch even tho thrs no raya outins...wadever it is, im glad tt we can easily spend time together now (all of us), u guys are juz so so so fun to hang out with, 100% agree...=) before fidi's turn to go NS, before zaid's busy wth sch again, before taufiq's busy wth sch too, etc...lets go out & enjoy ourselves dudes..weee! ice skate, watch movies...suggest more fidi, more plans..! haha!

Btw, taufiq...thnx fer the sweeeeeeeeet prezzie..=) its really so sweet...thnx..*hugs*

Hmmm...i think im goona make some bread for myself (hopefully thrll be no conkroaches in the kitchen) thn check mail...300+ mail!!...powerrr..hehee
Presenting phar later..gwen, wish me luck,haha!
Thn gyming wth yaya n zir...in two years, insyallah...ill look DIFFERENT... ;) thnx to those (yaya, fiq, mac, ful...) hu guide me...mmmmmmmmuuah!

ciaoo....

2343 hrs...anger

13th November, 2007, Tuesday

been days i don't pray (coz i cant) and i feel one kind man, feel like i want to just end everything that is alive in this world, one kind...im thankful that im a Muslim coz at the end of the day, i can only turn to Allah for calmness n happiness in life..really

managed to go to sch wth yaya n zir ths morning, amazing..ahah,we were still late bt at least i was nt too late tt zir n yaya could nt afford to wait 4 me..=p

btw..ms shree, all ur lects seems like revision lects u noe tt? it scares me now to start studyin ur notes..haha, quite wordy..
and ms Tseng, thx fer wastin our 15min listening to ur wonderful tips and sang us lullaby =)

shaizer, i was supposed to do my phar project n belated phar quiz but well, guess its too late now to thnk abt drugs,haha..shld have done e quiz jz nw,while studyin wth FIDI but again,well..forgot i guess..*shrug*

FIDI: *slap*..haha!
thnx fer offerin me to study wth u everyday..guess u do have an intention behind tt offer,haha..dn werry,ure my best fren (even tho i dn noe u THAT well) and ill always wish u well..=)u can depend on me but dun ever use me, ill kill you..haha! beep me up if u wan to study and if u wn to have some 'study time' with my fren, tell me early so ill book some1 else to study wth me...*slap* lol

2 days studyin phar n im still stuck at cardio drugs, hah! NS1 n NS2 untouched..power ah zim..power..ill nt b surprised if my GPA goes damn down, really..anyway, i used to be so into n semangat in studyin n sch when U were in my life cz U were actually more serious abt my edu than i was..but now, since U no longer in it, the semangat n spirit not there la, simple~ =L

aite, cant type too much, later Ana wun read..hehe..ciao~

listen to Cry by Rihanna...meanigful...*cry*

0134hrs...minor disturbance

6 November 2007, Tuesday

It has been 4 days since PO3 Halloween Party and 3 days since my Birthday Party. So I have been lagging for 2 days,haha!

The Halloween Party was deadly FuN. First of all, thank you so so much Miss Paula Christina Barrera for making me up and thank you so so much Miss Yasmin and Miss Syahidah for lending me outfits and accessories...MMMMMWAH!

My Halloween story, The Dead Bride: "I got married to my husband a year ago. The jerk had an affair with another woman and left me even before I got to find out the truth. He gave me sweet lies and false hopes. I chopped him to pieces and cooked his heart on my birthday this year and set myself on fire in my wedding dress."...

How's the story peeps?...hehe. We spent like 70% of the time taking photographs,we played one game whr we have to feeel stuffs,grooss stuffs thn we 'enjoyed' the food(food is as spooky as US)hahaa! Then e best part for me was the SURPRISE! =D really did not expect it AT ALL coz my bday was like a month ago,its jz the celeb postponed to nov due to fasting & hari raya but its ok, THANK YOU MY BELOVED PO3 BABES & DUDES! Love ya'll..*hugs* Paula,i have to tell u,besides the best make-up artist, ure also 1 of the best young photographer i've ever met,mwah! =)

Thank you for the photos Paul <3

These are my favourites =D

That was 4 days ago...

My belated bday party at ECP Island Resort felt to be sooo short coz it was really2 GEREK! I juz wished tt one night would have been much2 longer,hehe!

A BIG thank you to Jia Shun, Yasmin, Sya, Zirah, Jo, Is, Azimah, Aisyah, Nurimah, Suelas, Yati, Firdaus, Hafis, Wan, Zaid, Suzy, Faris, WanPee, Anuar, Mac, Saiful, Suhana, Yaya, Munzir, Khairulnizar for coming!

To all my uncles, aunties, cousins, siblings, family friends & neighbours, *hugs*...THANK YOU for coming too and made everything kecoh & gerek...=D .

To Ernie, Siva & PO3 babes, thank you for the Sheer Romance,hehe! I lurrrve it~

To Faiz, sorry I did not direct u properly or picked u up. Thank you for making ur way to the chalet,hehe =D & ur prezzie! *hugs*

Saving the best for the last, THANK YOU MY DEAREST MAMA & BABA for spending so much to hold the celebration & for the lovely Moschino prezzie!..LOVE YOU~

Those 13 friends who stayed back and made my night happy and enjoyable, POWER ahh,the best overnight chalet i've ever had man~ gerek! The 'heart attack', the 'Bluff' (zaid,masih jujur? lol), the 'Murderer' (i can only be the best civillian cz i can easily noe hu is e murderer but im the worse murderer cz i either wink at the other murderer or a policeman lol)...had fun till 7am! WooWw, lucky i brought the cards =D..thanx guys...*hugs*

Btw,received a typed bday song from U at abt 0130hrs. Why..whyyy...? If U want to leave me, leave me bulat2 bole? Leave me & nvr come back please.

Whenever U keep coming back like this or in any way whr there is U, it's difficult for me U noe tt? Do U noe tt i can melt & be soft? Do U noe tt i actually wanted to reply U and even thank U? I do not wan to ignroe U,i DUN. But ill be reminded of ALL the false hopes, the sweet lies, the harsh words and the U that I nvr knew and when im reminded, all I can feel is juz HURT,juz hurt & nothin else. And when im in pain, all i wan is a life WITHOUT U. Now do U understand? Pls, help me move on wth my life...without U

Hmmmmmmmmmmmh...i muz say,this is even worse than living in denial. I juz cant explain how worse it is,i juz know it IS. Its purely torturing and painful to lead a life like this.

Gave an analogy to my besties: "You want to run so much but you juz can't run coz u ran before and it did hurt ur knee a lot and whenever you feel like running now, ull juz be reminded of how painful it was & u'll juz keep refusing to run again"...........

Sorry guys, if this post is too long but im sure u guys will enjoy it & reflect on it...ciao~

0121hrs...in serenity

2nd November 2007, Friday

Let's make this date significant. FIRST posting from Zim. Zim has a blog! haha..WOww An hour has juz passed & thrs still like 23 hours to spend today...hmmmmmh. Sometimes u wn the time to pass by soo slow n sometimes u jz wn the next day to be today or next 2 days to be the next day. Funny ar people..funnyyy =p

Sch will be from 10 to 1..as usual,i dn thnk i can b early or even on time AGAIN. haha...zimm zim..since frst day of semester u noe...! =D

Aftwhich, tagging paula to whereever she'll b going cz today,she's gona transform me to be GOTHIC..cool man~ woo!PO3 havin this halloween party n everyone's gona look 'diff'..haha!

Ernie's a pirate, Siva's a sotong ghost (nah,kidding..scream ghost), Joanne's a dark fairy, Paula's Wednesday from The Adam's Family, the rest..let later tells huh. Zira's nt comin,so sad..=( we'll update u sweetie!

Btw,gona help paula bake stuffs to return her the favour,thnx paula! =) Oh ya, a big thank you to Yasmin cz she's the source of my outfit n idea, *muah*

Wonder wads gona happen at Hailing's hs later,chaos man,haha! Party's gona till late as in 11pm?...haha,of crs la,ths is nt like tt kind of 'till late' partyy. how i wish it is..hehee

Ciao bebs...nd to sleep,even dn feel like to..hai,dn noe la,jz dn feel like sleepin these days even tho hw tired i am...jz find it nicee listenin to Evanescence in the wee hrs while facing the monitor chatting & surfing..back to hu i was i guess~ *shrug* life....

*HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO FAIZ...=D